Some People...

I used to tell my friends that they were crazy and it's all in their heads when they thought there were people placed on this earth just to make their life hell. I just used to laugh and tell them that there just are people out there THAT dumb. But the past few weeks, I've been realizing...hmm...maybe my friends were correct. There ARE people place on this earth with ONE life goal...to make ME miserable!

GAH! I just can't believe that someone could be THAT stupid, so they must be doing it on purpose!

Anyway...although my life sucks right now I gotta be a little thankful. I can always rely on my friends to make me feel better. Especially when I heard about my friends relative. They just found out that he's gay. He's middle aged and has a wife and kids! I'm just like, oh my gosh. Wow! I feel really bad for him and his family, but I'm thankful that I won't be like that. I mean, that I get to live in a time and place where being myself is "okay". I can't even imagine what he went through growing up. Having all these feelings but no outlet to express them because of the fear of being an outcast.

It's hard to believe that just ten years ago, you could have a horrible life just because you admitted you were a homosexual. And what about now??? It's scary because it's almost like it's "trendy" to be gay. I actually happy that I grew up during the time I did. It was right at the cusp of the transition. My early years it was shunned so I had to be more reserved and I still had to hide it. But my later years it started to become acceptable and I was able to grow a bit more. In the end, I remember what it was like and can appreciate the acceptance. I'm still humbled and don't flaunt it but don't hide it.

I just feel now, these kids are coming out of the closet WAY too early and are very "This is me, I don't care if you are uncomfortable with it...DEAL!" For me, and probably me only, I still have to respect other peoples feelings and if they're uncomfortable with this part of me, I can pull it back a bit. It's not all in your face. Y'know? Oh well...I guess either way is still better than the past and I hope that in the next 20+ years, the number of divorces due to a recently discovered gay partners diminishes. :)

Alright...so that's my rant for today with a glimmer of hope for tomorrow. WHEE~