Alone on Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone! :) I hope you had a great one and got lots of good gifts!

So this was my first Christmas alone in over 5 years. It's quite an interesting feeling. It's a mixed bag actually. On one hand, I was quite sad and dare I say, a little depressed that I don't have someone. But on the other hand, I was quite happy spending a lot of time with my family and nephew and niece. It's almost as if I lost one person to love, but gained two little ones that I love sooo dearly. Then I went back to depression after they leave because I'm left thinking..."will I ever have a family of my own?"

But...it's almost a new year right? I'm going to start my new year right. I have new goals and aspirations and for once...A PLAN!!! A plan you might ask? Well more of a financial and career plan. Or maybe they are considered more like deadlines? I don't know what category they would really fit under, but I have something at least. And I'm not going to let love drive my life. I am embracing the new thoughts of, if and when it happens, great...but I'm not gonna pursue it like I have in the past. That only led to me going crazy and doubting my feelings and blah! haha.

So I now welcome 2008 with an open mind and hopefully a closed wallet! ahaha! Waialae Iki...here I come! :)

USTA!

*sigh* I miss my Veggie Tale Friend. =(

Birthday Wars

So today we are celebrating my friends 26th birthday. For the past
four or five years, we have been doing crazy things to celebrate these
occasions. Like last year it was Chuck-E-Cheeses. I won't mention
who had to do the Chucky Shuffle, but let's just say I've been
plotting my revenge. This past year, she froze my
assetts...literally. She froze a bunch of cash in big and little
blocks of ice.

Haha! But now, thanks to my friend Jerm I think we finally got her
back. Its amazing what 30lbs of cornstarch, 4.5 gallons of water and
a 5 gallon water bottle can do. :)

How do I live without you?

Omg! I LOVE my new blackberry! I have NO idea how I can survive
wothout it now. Just having all of this information at my fingertips,
I feel so powerful. Mwahahaha! Watch out world, here I come!

So Sweet

Wow...why can't more guys be this considerate??? Haha.

Solo attack...GO!

So, it's been about a month since the break-up. I've just been keeping busy to keep my mind off things. One part is sad, but the other part knows that this is for the best and that it was the right thing to do.

Here's my plan: I know I need to be single for a while before even attempting another relationship. So I'm gonna give myself to the end of the year to just relax and re-evaluate my life. (mainly career & location) At that time, I will open myself up to whatever comes my way. Ideally, I'll give Hawaii a few months, but if nothing pans out here, love or career, then I will definitely re-open my New York connections.

It's going to be an interesting few months until the end of the year though. I think there are a handful of possible love connections that could be made. Some I would encourage more than others...but the point would be that they would have to make the "big gesture" in order to win me. :) I think I have a lot to offer. I have a pretty stable career, I'm compassionate, considerate and have a good heart. Not to mention, I've been told by many that I'm pretty darn good at....*ahem* anyway. So yeah. I'm growing in the sense that I know what I want, and I know how I want to be treated and I don't think I'll settle for anything less than what my expectations are.

Well, until all this happens...this will be me with my "fake-bake"...waiting...

Labores Lunar

Ahh...the lunar eclipse is so beautiful. I just wish I had someone to hold while watching it.
*I didn't take that picture. Hawaii's lunar eclipse isn't as close and I don't have that great of a camera.

Puzzle

This is a very perplexing time in my life. It feels like my life is a blank puzzle, and just when you think you got it done, you find the last piece doesn't fit and you gotta start over from scratch. Hopefully someone will come along soon and all the pieces will just 'fit'.

Here is a cool song I found on youtube from a guy named Josh Verdes. The video isn't anything, but the song is good. You gotta click on the "play button" in the little square below in order to start the music. :) Enjoy!

Alone

Wow. It's very interesting going from a house full of people to totally empty all at once. The same day my parents take a trip in 8 years, the ex moves out. It's quite disturbing really. I've grown up with two grandparents, two parents & three brothers all under one roof, and now I'm all alone. One would think "HOUSE PARTY!" but actually I need to clean! Haha. We just had tons of relatives in for my grandmother's funeral and they left our house in a mess and a half! So as a "gift" to my parents, I'll clean the house so they don't have to worry when they come home. Heh he...aren't I such a good son? :)

Well off I go to clean! Laundry first...I need clean underwear! Haha!

Here we go!

So I'm off! I have chosen my path. Now comes the even harder part, going forward without looking back and wondering where the other path leads. I am determined...this is me:

Grrr! haha! Well I hope things work out and everything turns out for the best. o.O Wish me luck!

One side note: THERE IS A FRICK LOAD OF PORN OUT THERE! While looking for the above image...I was like WOAH! Try just typing "anime" in google image search. GEEZ LOUISE!

Crossroads

Here is a snapshot on my life right now. Remember that scene from Lilo & Stitch where Stitch goes into the clearing and says, "I'm Lost!" expecting his family to find him? I sorta feel like that right now. I just want to run through the streets and yell "I'm Lost!" hoping that someone will come and tell me what to do!

Lost...that's how I feel.

I NEED It!

I need this upcoming vacation. It's funny how something so small as getting away from work for a week can just put everything in perspective. I find that I am a lot more productive right before I leave for a trip. I make all my calls, complete all my forms and get payments out very quickly. Whereas two weeks ago, I would just put them into neat little piles on my desk and stare at them dreading the thought of going through it.

But now, my desk is clean and papers are all filed. Amazing! I think it's just I'm taking every precaution to avoid having my office call me and ask where things are and the status on stuff. That can totally ruin a vacation. I just hope no emergencies come up. =\

Anyway...so Vegas here I come!! More importantly...Wheel-of-Fortune, here I come! Oh, one quick story...I had a dream that turned into a nightmare the other night. I dreamt that I was in Vegas...I know how can that be a nightmare? Well let me tell you! I was in sin city, and I had all this money in my hand. BUT...I could not find a Wheel-of-Fortune machine! I went from casino to casino and NONE!! I spent the entire dream looking for one. How sad yeah!?! Oh well, 07/07/07 good luck eh? We will see!

Purging of the soul

My first post on this blogger thing...This should be interesting. Just a little InSight into my life and feelings. I may even post some opinion pieces, and boy let me tell you...I have a lot of opinions. Some you may like, and most you may not. Heh he.

Oh well...so why is my first one titled "Purging of the soul"? Well because that is what I just did. It's no surprise to anyone who knows me that I like to have a good cry once and a while. I think it's healty, and it also gets all that "gook" out of your tear ducts. :) Anyway, so when I am ready to have a good soul purging, the one thing I can always rely on is a good Korean drama. Tonight, it was "Tae Guk Gi - The Brotherhood of War." If you haven't seen it (and you like a good cry) then I HIGHLY recommend it. The effects are even more worse if you have siblings, mainly brothers (hence the name). Here are two movie posters for it:Now this movie gets me going from the very beginning and it's a good slow, steady tearing until the end where you just end up letting the flood gates open. Another movie that totally gets to me is entitled "Sad Movie." Can the title be any more obvious? But think about it...if a Korean movie is actually titled "Sad Movie" then you know that it HAS to be depressing. It starts off all hunkey dorey happy, but then just ends up kicking you in the balls! They're sneaky..they break you down slowly and you don't even know they're doing it. Here are two movie posters for this reaching for the kleenex (not that way) flick:
Alright...so I highly recommend you add these two movies to your collection. And now you know!