InSight

Da Vision Board...

2010-01-06T22:35:00.004-10:00

Okay, so one of my best girlfriends Val got me to make this thing called a vision board with her. I've never heard of this before but just like me jumping in on anything said "okay...". So we got together (after spending plenny money at OfficeDepot for supplies) and began to build this thing. In case you don't know what a vision board is, it's pretty much a board of any kind (cork, magnetic..etc) that you stick your goals on. Goals for life, work, love, home...whatever you want. Oh and I also found out you gotta put a picture of yourself in the middle.

Anyway...so I am aiming my vision board for the near future (5 years). I currently have 5 items on it.

1. The Car - I used to really want a Lexus, but ever since Twilight...darn you..you know who you are...I really want Carlisle's car...a Mercedes. I've been doing some research and it's not too bad. Some models are even cheaper than the Lexus I wanted. So yay!

2. The Trip - I really want to go on an Alaska Cruise!!!

3. The Home - A condo to start with and eventually a house. But just really a place that I can make warm and inviting and call home. :)

4. The Body - I really want a nice body. I've been sorta letting myself go...I won't say how bad...let's just say McDonalds, 2 extra value meals...and 3 episodes of Charmed...not a pretty picture!!! But I am now on a good diet and doing P90X. It's kicking my okole, but I'm starting to see the difference. So YAY!

5. The Boyfriend - Now this one is totally funny!! To make a short story long...so I know I would probably prefer an asian guy. So I was looking for pictures on Google for "Asian, Male, Short"...and this picture comes up on the top row:

Okay...here is the story...I TOTALLY know this guy! If you recognize him, it's probably from a movie called "Saving Face" where he played "Little Yu". I know him because he is one of my girlfriends ex-boyfriends!!! I met him when she came to visit me and attend a wedding in Hawaii. He is the NICEST guy!!! He even autographed my copy of "Saving Face"...so da nice yeah! Plus he's pretty hot no? Anyways...getting to the point...I said that this is the picture I must use for my "Boyfriend" vision. There is another picture under this heading, but let's not talk about that.

There...that's my vision board. But then, Val asked me...what about your job? (oh...I gotta be careful with this one since co-workers read this...ummmm...) anyway...my response is that my job is only a means to obtain what I really want in life...car, home, travel...I don't have any job that would be a "goal" for me. So yeah.

I've actually been pretty blessed when it comes to work. Jobs always sorta fell my way. I did work quite hard to land my first job at HVCB, but after that I was very lucky. Even to this day. *edit* I doubt I'll retire from the company I currently work for, but I think (and hope) that I'll have a job here for a while. :)

Anyways...so that's my long-short story about my vision board. So far, I think it's really been working and I see my goals every morning when I wake up. I wanted to write this entry so that I have a record of this and I can look back on it 5 years from now. Plus, I'm hoping placing my visions in multiple places will help build encouragement and really get me through it all. :)

Sooo...what's on YOUR vision board?

His Favorite Christmas Song - My Favorite Christmas Song

2009-12-27T00:05:00.004-10:00

Just heard this song and instantly fell in love with it.

*note...I don't really care for the dancing anime in this video, but it was the best quality on youtube.

Add this to the list of songs that make up my life...

2009-12-15T21:50:00.002-10:00

It is a far, far better thing that I do, than I have ever done - Charles Dickens

2009-12-14T23:21:00.001-10:00

I'm a Fool!

2009-03-19T18:22:00.003-10:00

So I bought a MD player from Amazon.com and received it in the mail today. (Amazon is the BOMB BTW) The reason why I bought a MD player among all my MP3 players???? To play one MD disk I received years ago for my 20th birthday. Yes, you read that correctly...ONE, (1), Uno, Ichi, Singulo....etc. disk! When I bought it, I thought to myself that I am a friggen fool! WTH am I doing!?!? But now that I am listening to the ONE disk...it was totally worth it. :) A whole bunch of memories came back...here is the song list:

1) I'll Be There For You - The Rembrandts
2) The Way You Make Me Feel - Michael Jackson
3) Smelly Cat - Friends
4) Sometimes - Britney Spears
5) Joey's Prank Call - Friends
6) His Cheeseburger - Mr. Lunt (Veggie Tales)
7) House At Pooh Corner - Ka'au Crater Boys *remember this group!?!? They are awesome!
8) Somewhere Over The Rainbow - IZ
9) The Rainbow Connection - The Brothers Cazimero
10) Happy Hanukkah - Friends
11) More Than Words - Extreme
12) Love Takes Time - Mariah Carey
13) I Thought She Knew - 'N SYNC
14) Grandma - Friends
15) The Hairbrush Song - Larry (Veggie Tales)
16) Friends - Na Leo Pilimehana *I have an autographed CD from Na Leo...the memories
17) Crazy Without You - Pure Heart *They were much better as a group.
18) Jingle Bitch - Friends
19) Aoi Usegi - Shiriko Sekai (not sure cuz it was in katakana...)
20) Contigo En La Distancia - Christina Aguilera
21) Dance Of The Cucumber - Larry (Veggie Tales)
22) New York Blackout - Friends
23) Amazing Grace - Destiny's Child
24) Copacabana - Friends
25) Waikiki - Na Leo Pilimehana
26) The Sound - Friends
27) Flying With Angels - Na Leo Pilimehana

That's a lot of songs yeah!?!? MD's were the bomb at the time! I know the song list probably sounds weird to you...but for me and the person who gave it to me...it was pretty special. Heck, I did just buy a whole new player just for this one disk!!

It's good to know that some things....never change. :)

Only A Select Few Can Truly Appreciate This...

2009-02-05T23:52:00.001-10:00

MKKM Anthem

2009-01-31T04:19:00.002-10:00

7 Things - Miley Cyrus

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared

It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change
Until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you!
The 7 things I hate about you, oh you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy

Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology

When you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh, I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here

The 7 things I hate about you!
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy

Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you!
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy

Your hands in mine
When we're intertwined, everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like most that you do
You make me love you, you do

Totally Awesome!

2008-12-10T00:17:00.000-10:00

Josh Groban is just amazing! Haha!

It's not me, it's you

2008-12-08T18:57:00.003-10:00

If anyone comes across this post, sorry...it's just a rant, a chance for me to get how I feel down in writing somewhere. I'm usually a very happy person and it takes a lot for me to get upset about things...usually. :)

Anyway...so it's your birthday (you know who you are). You know I didn't forget, I just chose not to say anything. Why? Because I'm not sure if you want to be my friend anymore. We used to be best friends. But I guess things change. I loved you, but you didn't love me...and the rest is history. Ever since, I've felt guilty that it was my fault and that I put you through so much things that you shouldn't have experienced. It was my fault that you now have this shame that you have to live with for the rest of your life. I always told you that I'm sorry.

Then...this past week, I finally got my wake-up call!

Screw this crap! Why am I the one that is sorry? You should be the one that is sorry, for putting me through hell and back. I can't believe that I ever thought that my love was shameful or a sin. It's a blessing and you should have been grateful to even have had a part of it. It's not something that I go around giving away left and right! You should feel honored that I shared that with you, and you should be now be tormented with the thought of what you passed up.

Don't get me wrong, I don't wish anything bad for you. But I bet that every relationship you've had since, cannot compare to what we had....both emotionally and physically. All I can do now is hope you can find someone to make you happy...because I know I will.

Twister

2008-10-16T00:03:00.004-10:00

So I was watching a movie the other night...I don't remember what it was (can you tell how good it was?) but there was a scene that the two main characters were playing twister. I thought...geez, that's an old game! But as I was watching I began to think that it's a game that was not given enough credit. Watching the couple start twisting and tangling I thought, gosh that's a game I would like to play with ___. Did you ever realize that it is one big excuse to rub your body against the another? Pretty darn hot don't you think? Man, those people in the 60's really knew what they were doing eh?

So my question to you is..."Who would you play twister with now that you know what the game really is about?" You don't have to say any names...just who they were in your life. example: ex-boyfriend/girlfriend, high school teacher, star of the baseball team, etc.

A Rut

2008-09-24T20:39:00.002-10:00

*disclaimer* this post is just going to be one long rant...please don't pay attention to the formatting and grammer. :)

So the funniest conversation took place today between myself a co-worker and my boss. I guess I've been pretty irritable lately...enough for my boss to ask me what's going on. I mean work is really stressful right now and there are just so many things going on but usually I guess I can deal with all those factors. This time something was different...I'm being noticeably agro. So the three of us were trying to figure out what is different this time. We came to the conclusion that I am romantically deprived. This is the first time I've been in the high stress environment that is our office without a steady boyfriend. I guess it makes sense...I have a whole bunch of pent up testosterone and it needs some sort of outlet...and I become super mega uber bitch! :) YAY! But yeah...so pretty much, the solution came out to be my co-worker and my boss are going to find me someone to date. Hahah...It's really nice of them, but my boss is significantly more senior that I am and I'm not sure what kind of guys she would know....I'm kinna intrigued to find out though. Hahah!

GRR!

2008-09-02T21:09:00.002-10:00

Gah! What am I gonna do!?!?!

Picture from the penthouse of the W Honolulu. :)

An Old Flame Returns

2008-08-21T23:01:00.002-10:00

So it's been quite a while since I've listened to my J-pop and I'm falling in love again with my man, Ken Hirai. I think this is the fourth or fifth time I've fallen in love with him. The last time was with "Pop Star" and this time is a remix of an oldie of his..."Kiss of Life" Check it out:

Shooting Star

2008-08-04T23:17:00.004-10:00

So tonight there was a little crisis in the family, but all is well. Thank heavens!

Well, on the way home from the emergency I was driving and guess what I saw...I saw the brightest shooting star that I've seen in many years. It was so bright that I could see it while on the freeway and all the street lights were on. It was amazing! It made me think about the last time I've seen one that bright.

I was with someone I loved at Portlock watching the moon rise over the ocean. It was so beautiful, and I asked for a sign that we were meant to be, and guess what...a bright shooting star shot right over our heads. That's when I knew this was real...or so I thought.

Jump forward a few years and now we've lost touch and both moved on. But whenever I see a shooting star that bright, it will always take me back and make me smile.

InSight on the 3G iPhone

2008-07-20T12:06:00.000-10:00

So I've had my iphone for a little over a week now and I just wanted
to point out a few things that I've noticed.

First the bad:

1) I have a really hard time making calls while I drive. I know it's
unsafe, but it wasn't too bad before because I could dial without
looking at my phone. But now this touch screen is very difficult to
dial without looking because there are no physical buttons. Watch out
all you drivers, there are a lot of people with this phone put there
now.

2) the battery lasts me only a little more than a day. I have to dock
it everynight. With my blackberry it was every other or every two
nights. But I think I am using this phone more than my last so of
course the battery will drain more.

3) I'm spending a lot more money. There are just so many apps and
iTunes stuff I want. I already bought two seasons of sex and the city
to watch while I work out at the gym.

Now the good:

1) I am actually going to the gym. Watching shows while I do cardio
really makes the hour fly by.

2) at first I was weary about switching to AT&T because I heard a lot
of bad stuff regardig their network. T-Mobile did have a much better
EDGE network, but let me just say, 3G is a whole new ballgame. I'm
getting strong 3G signals in places I've never had reception before!
So far I'm totally happy about switching over.

3) I just really love the stability I have with my phone. There are a
few bugs with the third party apps, but the core system is so
awesome. I hear that the new blackberry bold has a good core now, but
still I think apple has done an excellent job on this one.

4) I love my iMac as you know, and this is like a mini version of it.
So how can things get any better for me?

So if any of you are debating about getting an iPhone or iPod, I would
totally encourage you to do so. If you are just looking for an iPod,
consider the iPhone. It's an all in one device that will make you
happy, I promise!

Sent from my iPhone

Photo post test

2008-07-12T17:56:00.000-10:00

Just testing how well the photo blogging works with the iPhone. :)

iPhone Bitches

2008-07-12T17:52:00.001-10:00

So, about a year ago I posted an entry about my Blackberry being the
bomb! But that was before I had an iPhone.

I am just so amazed at the technology this thing packs into such a
small device. I know I said I couldn't live without the Blackberry,
bit now look at me. So, I won't say the same about this phone.
Although, I probably would turn around to pick it up if I forgot it at
home, even if I were as far as Mililani.

Sick, I know, but true.

So now I'm testing out this mobile blogging. Forgive me if I mis-
spell some words or the auto text uses the wrong word.

The only thing I want is to wirelessly sync my Google calendar with
the calendar in the iPhone. If anyone out there knows how to do this,
please let me know.

Let the countdown begin!

2008-07-09T23:46:00.002-10:00

I know...pretty lame background, but I didn't have very many choices for this app. But YAY! I can't wait to get my new iPhone with the G. I just learned that Pandora created an app for the iPhone! AWESOME!! Pandora 24/7 baby!

Wa‘ahila Ridge Hike!!!

2008-07-01T11:44:00.002-10:00

So this is a video of Tracy trying to jump down this cliff like part of the hike. It's pretty funny! More pictures below. They say it all...I never want to go on this trail again!

Day 2 - Complete

2008-06-26T23:53:00.003-10:00

Alrighty, so today was day two at the gym. First off, this is a HUGE accomplishment for me. I don't think I've ever been to the gym two days in a row and actually stayed longer than 20 minutes! haha. Well I did another hour of cardio and some legs, before the G said we should go since he didn't want to go to the women's preferred floor with our friend Lindz. So we cut the workout short today. I'm not planning on going tomorrow night, but I am going on a 6-mile hike on Saturday morning!

Yay for losing my belly and getting back my eight pack abs! :)

It's quite depressing...this is what I used to look like...pretty hot huh? haha. I don't look like this anymore. =(

Working out!

2008-06-26T00:19:00.002-10:00

Okay...so it's been almost 2 years since I've been to the gym. I paid about $800 for a three-year membership and I only went about a dozen times. But tonight I went with the G and Lindz and let me tell you two years makes a difference! All new equipment and everything! Well, it also showed how out of shape I am. We went on the elliptical for an hour, but MAN after 5 minutes I was like...I'm not gonna make it! But I looked at Lindz and I said to myself...if she can do it...so can I....and you know what...I did it! I was wobbling all around but I did it! Then we did arms and abs...man I hope to get my abs back soon. Plus I've been tanning (both indoor and outdoor) and so I think things are getting better.

Haha...the best part...guess what we did after the gym? We ATE! I had a Manhattan sandwich and fried rice...so yeah, we basically undid everything. Oh wells...we're gonna try go again tomorrow. I just hope I can keep it up this time. o.O

Some People...

2008-06-18T11:43:00.002-10:00

I used to tell my friends that they were crazy and it's all in their heads when they thought there were people placed on this earth just to make their life hell. I just used to laugh and tell them that there just are people out there THAT dumb. But the past few weeks, I've been realizing...hmm...maybe my friends were correct. There ARE people place on this earth with ONE life goal...to make ME miserable!

GAH! I just can't believe that someone could be THAT stupid, so they must be doing it on purpose!

Anyway...although my life sucks right now I gotta be a little thankful. I can always rely on my friends to make me feel better. Especially when I heard about my friends relative. They just found out that he's gay. He's middle aged and has a wife and kids! I'm just like, oh my gosh. Wow! I feel really bad for him and his family, but I'm thankful that I won't be like that. I mean, that I get to live in a time and place where being myself is "okay". I can't even imagine what he went through growing up. Having all these feelings but no outlet to express them because of the fear of being an outcast.

It's hard to believe that just ten years ago, you could have a horrible life just because you admitted you were a homosexual. And what about now??? It's scary because it's almost like it's "trendy" to be gay. I actually happy that I grew up during the time I did. It was right at the cusp of the transition. My early years it was shunned so I had to be more reserved and I still had to hide it. But my later years it started to become acceptable and I was able to grow a bit more. In the end, I remember what it was like and can appreciate the acceptance. I'm still humbled and don't flaunt it but don't hide it.

I just feel now, these kids are coming out of the closet WAY too early and are very "This is me, I don't care if you are uncomfortable with it...DEAL!" For me, and probably me only, I still have to respect other peoples feelings and if they're uncomfortable with this part of me, I can pull it back a bit. It's not all in your face. Y'know? Oh well...I guess either way is still better than the past and I hope that in the next 20+ years, the number of divorces due to a recently discovered gay partners diminishes. :)

Alright...so that's my rant for today with a glimmer of hope for tomorrow. WHEE~

The Happiness Formula

2008-06-09T11:11:00.004-10:00

Termination of old T-Mobile contract = $200

Purchase of new 3G iPhone = $199

Economic Stimulus Payment = $600

Stimulating the economy, getting a new iPhone and having some $$$ left over... = TRUE HAPPINESS!

So it's officially announced. The new 3G iPhone is friggen SWEET! I'm getting all jittery just thinking about it. BUT, of course...darn Apple isn't releasing it until July 11th. That means I still gotta wait a month before I'll truly be happy!

I gotta hand it to Apple, they are freaking genius'! I thought I was a true Blackberry supporter, but with everything it can do...and for a mere $199 for 8GB!!! I will admit defeat and give in to the temptation. Even though I don't really care for AT&T...sorry T-Mobile...but you're just taking too darn long to launch your 3G network and you don't get good devices early on. =(

iPhone & AT&T here I come!

(Image courtesy of apple.com)

No wonder Eve ate the apple!

2008-06-08T13:20:00.001-10:00

AAAHAHAHAH!

Incompatible!?!?

2008-06-05T22:10:00.003-10:00

Alrighty...it's official! I'm totally and utterly meant to be alone! I thought it was only in my head...but chemistry.com provides concrete findings that I am totally incompatible with pretty much everyone!!!

Yup! About two months ago I signed up for chemistry.com to find my soulmate...well, actually it was because of this commercial:

But now that it's been two months and $100 later...NOTHING!! REALLY!?!?!? CRAP! I'll just die alone and leave my money to my cats and dogs. *sigh*

"I am alone...." (crumples paper) "I am utterly alone..."

NYC Pictures

2008-05-28T22:51:00.003-10:00

Finally I figured out how to embed a slideshow. :) Enjoy!

Damn, I'm back!

2008-05-17T23:21:00.002-10:00

So, I'm back from my vacation and "Birthday" getaway in NYC. I had a blast and got to do a lot of stuff! I'll post some pics once I get them organized and steal a bunch from Makia! :)

Will you ever Realize?

2008-04-23T23:01:00.000-10:00

Justin Nozuka

2008-04-20T21:01:00.001-10:00

This is a pretty cool guy. Sort of sounds like Jason Mraz but a little more scratchy voice. Anyway, I really like this song "After Tonight" I think it has a lot of meaning for me. =\

Let me know what you think.

NYC Here I Come!

2008-04-06T20:38:00.004-10:00

I am totally stoked! I get to pry myself away from work for a week and spend it in NYC! I can't wait to see the city again and more importantly...the SHOWS! :) Although I'm on a tight budget, I lived there for a year while going to college so I know how to survive on a tight budget. OOOH! I can't wait to eat all my favorite food!

NYC - HERE I COME!

WALL*E

2008-03-30T20:41:00.002-10:00

Okay, who wants to see this with me? It looks way too awesome!

http://disney.go.com/disneypictures/wall-e/

Directionally Impaired

2008-03-30T00:44:00.003-10:00

Life seems to be passing me by and I have no idea where I'm supposed to be or going to. When it comes to life and love, I think I'm directionally impaired. Does anyone else feel like this or am I the only one?

Hello! I'm a Mac, and I'm a PC =)

2008-03-06T00:06:00.003-10:00

So, I spoiled myself today. As you can guess, I bought a new computer...not just any computer...a MAC!! Can I take back what I said about macs three years ago? I said they were crap and I would never EVER own one. But today...there was a sale at the UH Bookstore and I was just going to check it out and see what the prices were. Then this super sales guy comes out of nowhere and starts talking to me and my co-workers. Let's just sum this up with one formula: 1 Super Sales Guy + Two UH Workers on Payday + 30 minutes = 1 Macbook & 1 iMac sold. Total value? ~$2,000.

Okay, but here is what TOTALLY sold me. I admitted to him that I am a PC guy and that I wasn't sure if I could convert. But then he showed me something that just BLEW me away! It's called...ready for it? VMware Fusion. What is this you may ask? It's a program for the Mac that allows you to install Windows and run it in parallels with Leopard (or any OS X).

At first, I thought, nah...it can't run that well...but when he showed me...it was friggen better than my computer at home!!! (BTW, did you know that PCWorld rated Mac's as the #1 PC for Windows? Can you believe it? A mac runs Windows better than a computer MADE to run Windows!) So I thought about it, and I realized that I've had my computer for about four or five years...and I bought it for $299 on sale at what used to be known as CompUSA. So I thought...what the hell...it's time for an upgrade. And man was it an upgrade.

Everything worked right out of the box...I installed Fusion and Windows and it was easier than installing it on my PC!! I must admit that I think i am now an official apple-head.

Alrighty, back to playing with my computer and figuring out all the shortcuts! Darn PC vs Mac keys!

High School Days

2008-01-29T00:28:00.000-10:00

So it's only a month into 2008 and everything is so much better. I accomplished two things. I hired a new assistant at work and I paid off all my credit card debt. I feel like this huge weight is lifted off of me.

Towards the end of last year, I thought I was gonna break and just quit my job. Things have gotten so outta hand and I was getting burnt out. The first few weeks with my assistant were pretty rough. I never managed a full time employee before. It was always student workers, temporary employees or interns. All of which I had no problem working with. But a full timer is a different story. For those who know me, I don't relinquish work very well. I always felt that no one can do what I want better than myself. So giving projects to other people is a very difficult thing for me.

BUT! I'm growing and learning and last week, I passed on a lot of things to my assistant. This weekend was the first weekend in over a year that I didn't turn on my work laptop, check voice messages and e-mails. I even deleted my work e-mail from my blackberry. THAT was a very difficult thing to do and I'm still trying to get used to it. I check my phone every five minutes because I'm used to always having a bunch of messages waiting for me. So yeah, this weekend was good in the sense that absolutely no work took place. It sucked because I'm still a little sick. I just have this cough that will not go away!

How did I get sick? Well, I was in Atlanta for an event planners conference for a week and guess what. Before we got there, Atlanta was in a level four drought. But when we got there...it started raining and then...SNOWING!!! YES, SNOW! I was pretty pissed off because I had warm clothes, but not snow clothes! I didn't know it snowed in the south, did you? But yeah, so pretty much everyone at the conference was sick and low and behold, I got sick. =( Blech!

Anywho, I've been taking it easy these past few days trying to recover because this Sunday I'm off again! This time to San Antonio, Texas. Man, if it gets cold and snows in San Antonio, I'mma be very pissed off!

So why did I title this entry "High School Days"? Well, ever since high school, there has been so many things weighing on me. Getting into College, deciding a major, graduating in that major, finding a job, excelling at work, finding a better job, excelling at that job, etc. All along, accruing debt and having a hard time paying things off. With all of that pressure, I somehow along the way lost my senses I think. I became numb to the world around me because I couldn't even think straight...always thinking about all these pressures and trying to find a way out.

Well after this weekend, I think I finally made my way back...back to how I saw the world back in high school.

Tonight, I spent about two and a half hours listening to music on youtube and itunes. I knew I always loved the song, "The Prayer" performed by all the artists like Celine Dion and Andrea Bocelli, Josh Groban and Anthony Callea. But until tonight I don't think I really heard the song. I mean, while I was listening to all these different versions, I once again started to hear not just the melody or the lyrics. I suddenly was able to hear the melodic progressions, harmonies, consonant and dissonant notes. For the first time in years, I was able to hear and recognize these things. It brought a smile to my face and I'll be honest, a tear to my eye. I've played music every day for about twelve years. I used to be able to hear and appreciate all of these little things, and suddenly I unknowingly lost it. But man is it a perfect moment when you realize it's back. It almost like becoming color blind, and then suddenly one day seeing the most beautiful vibrant sunset ever. A great feeling indeed.

I hope I can keep this up and enjoy what the rest of 2008 has to offer. Things are looking up! :)

Alone on Christmas

2007-12-25T22:39:00.000-10:00

Merry Christmas everyone! :) I hope you had a great one and got lots of good gifts!

So this was my first Christmas alone in over 5 years. It's quite an interesting feeling. It's a mixed bag actually. On one hand, I was quite sad and dare I say, a little depressed that I don't have someone. But on the other hand, I was quite happy spending a lot of time with my family and nephew and niece. It's almost as if I lost one person to love, but gained two little ones that I love sooo dearly. Then I went back to depression after they leave because I'm left thinking..."will I ever have a family of my own?"

But...it's almost a new year right? I'm going to start my new year right. I have new goals and aspirations and for once...A PLAN!!! A plan you might ask? Well more of a financial and career plan. Or maybe they are considered more like deadlines? I don't know what category they would really fit under, but I have something at least. And I'm not going to let love drive my life. I am embracing the new thoughts of, if and when it happens, great...but I'm not gonna pursue it like I have in the past. That only led to me going crazy and doubting my feelings and blah! haha.

So I now welcome 2008 with an open mind and hopefully a closed wallet! ahaha! Waialae Iki...here I come! :)

USTA!

2007-11-28T18:55:00.001-10:00

*sigh* I miss my Veggie Tale Friend. =(

Birthday Wars

2007-11-24T10:22:00.001-10:00

So today we are celebrating my friends 26th birthday. For the past
four or five years, we have been doing crazy things to celebrate these
occasions. Like last year it was Chuck-E-Cheeses. I won't mention
who had to do the Chucky Shuffle, but let's just say I've been
plotting my revenge. This past year, she froze my
assetts...literally. She froze a bunch of cash in big and little
blocks of ice.

Haha! But now, thanks to my friend Jerm I think we finally got her
back. Its amazing what 30lbs of cornstarch, 4.5 gallons of water and
a 5 gallon water bottle can do. :)

How do I live without you?

2007-11-22T23:54:00.001-10:00

Omg! I LOVE my new blackberry! I have NO idea how I can survive
wothout it now. Just having all of this information at my fingertips,
I feel so powerful. Mwahahaha! Watch out world, here I come!

So Sweet

2007-10-25T22:03:00.000-10:00

Wow...why can't more guys be this considerate??? Haha.

Solo attack...GO!

2007-08-29T00:41:00.000-10:00

So, it's been about a month since the break-up. I've just been keeping busy to keep my mind off things. One part is sad, but the other part knows that this is for the best and that it was the right thing to do.

Here's my plan: I know I need to be single for a while before even attempting another relationship. So I'm gonna give myself to the end of the year to just relax and re-evaluate my life. (mainly career & location) At that time, I will open myself up to whatever comes my way. Ideally, I'll give Hawaii a few months, but if nothing pans out here, love or career, then I will definitely re-open my New York connections.

It's going to be an interesting few months until the end of the year though. I think there are a handful of possible love connections that could be made. Some I would encourage more than others...but the point would be that they would have to make the "big gesture" in order to win me. :) I think I have a lot to offer. I have a pretty stable career, I'm compassionate, considerate and have a good heart. Not to mention, I've been told by many that I'm pretty darn good at....*ahem* anyway. So yeah. I'm growing in the sense that I know what I want, and I know how I want to be treated and I don't think I'll settle for anything less than what my expectations are.

Well, until all this happens...this will be me with my "fake-bake"...waiting...

Labores Lunar

2007-08-27T23:24:00.000-10:00

Ahh...the lunar eclipse is so beautiful. I just wish I had someone to hold while watching it.
*I didn't take that picture. Hawaii's lunar eclipse isn't as close and I don't have that great of a camera.

Puzzle

2007-08-26T18:30:00.000-10:00

This is a very perplexing time in my life. It feels like my life is a blank puzzle, and just when you think you got it done, you find the last piece doesn't fit and you gotta start over from scratch. Hopefully someone will come along soon and all the pieces will just 'fit'.

Here is a cool song I found on youtube from a guy named Josh Verdes. The video isn't anything, but the song is good. You gotta click on the "play button" in the little square below in order to start the music. :) Enjoy!

Alone

2007-08-20T20:04:00.000-10:00

Wow. It's very interesting going from a house full of people to totally empty all at once. The same day my parents take a trip in 8 years, the ex moves out. It's quite disturbing really. I've grown up with two grandparents, two parents & three brothers all under one roof, and now I'm all alone. One would think "HOUSE PARTY!" but actually I need to clean! Haha. We just had tons of relatives in for my grandmother's funeral and they left our house in a mess and a half! So as a "gift" to my parents, I'll clean the house so they don't have to worry when they come home. Heh he...aren't I such a good son? :)

Well off I go to clean! Laundry first...I need clean underwear! Haha!

Here we go!

2007-08-10T02:44:00.000-10:00

So I'm off! I have chosen my path. Now comes the even harder part, going forward without looking back and wondering where the other path leads. I am determined...this is me:

Grrr! haha! Well I hope things work out and everything turns out for the best. o.O Wish me luck!

One side note: THERE IS A FRICK LOAD OF PORN OUT THERE! While looking for the above image...I was like WOAH! Try just typing "anime" in google image search. GEEZ LOUISE!

Crossroads

2007-08-06T00:25:00.001-10:00

Here is a snapshot on my life right now. Remember that scene from Lilo & Stitch where Stitch goes into the clearing and says, "I'm Lost!" expecting his family to find him? I sorta feel like that right now. I just want to run through the streets and yell "I'm Lost!" hoping that someone will come and tell me what to do!

Lost...that's how I feel.

I NEED It!

2007-06-28T00:13:00.000-10:00

I need this upcoming vacation. It's funny how something so small as getting away from work for a week can just put everything in perspective. I find that I am a lot more productive right before I leave for a trip. I make all my calls, complete all my forms and get payments out very quickly. Whereas two weeks ago, I would just put them into neat little piles on my desk and stare at them dreading the thought of going through it.

But now, my desk is clean and papers are all filed. Amazing! I think it's just I'm taking every precaution to avoid having my office call me and ask where things are and the status on stuff. That can totally ruin a vacation. I just hope no emergencies come up. =\

Anyway...so Vegas here I come!! More importantly...Wheel-of-Fortune, here I come! Oh, one quick story...I had a dream that turned into a nightmare the other night. I dreamt that I was in Vegas...I know how can that be a nightmare? Well let me tell you! I was in sin city, and I had all this money in my hand. BUT...I could not find a Wheel-of-Fortune machine! I went from casino to casino and NONE!! I spent the entire dream looking for one. How sad yeah!?! Oh well, 07/07/07 good luck eh? We will see!

Purging of the soul

2007-06-16T22:46:00.000-10:00

My first post on this blogger thing...This should be interesting. Just a little InSight into my life and feelings. I may even post some opinion pieces, and boy let me tell you...I have a lot of opinions. Some you may like, and most you may not. Heh he.

Oh well...so why is my first one titled "Purging of the soul"? Well because that is what I just did. It's no surprise to anyone who knows me that I like to have a good cry once and a while. I think it's healty, and it also gets all that "gook" out of your tear ducts. :) Anyway, so when I am ready to have a good soul purging, the one thing I can always rely on is a good Korean drama. Tonight, it was "Tae Guk Gi - The Brotherhood of War." If you haven't seen it (and you like a good cry) then I HIGHLY recommend it. The effects are even more worse if you have siblings, mainly brothers (hence the name). Here are two movie posters for it:Now this movie gets me going from the very beginning and it's a good slow, steady tearing until the end where you just end up letting the flood gates open. Another movie that totally gets to me is entitled "Sad Movie." Can the title be any more obvious? But think about it...if a Korean movie is actually titled "Sad Movie" then you know that it HAS to be depressing. It starts off all hunkey dorey happy, but then just ends up kicking you in the balls! They're sneaky..they break you down slowly and you don't even know they're doing it. Here are two movie posters for this reaching for the kleenex (not that way) flick:
Alright...so I highly recommend you add these two movies to your collection. And now you know!